February 08, 2005

truth shines in the darkest of nights.

the past two weeks have been momentous.

much have happened, much that have caused my eyes to be open to things I have experienced before, but perhaps in smaller doses. military life has its fair share of the all-familiar sense of accomplishment and victory; yet, there is no denying the sacrifices and politics that are behind-the-scenes.

perhaps I react too strongly to certain issues, as some would assume, but I have to contend that that's just me. and because I'm me, issues like self-pride, integrity and hypocrisy border very much on my mind. being in constant contact with others does bring out the flair and flaws in one another, and I thank the Holy Spirit for the discernment to be able to see past the physical into the human heart.

it can be a little uncanny observing how individuals strive to excel in our world, through apparently meritorious deeds, yet they fail to realise they are but trapped in their own little worlds of fantasy and make-believe. just as Lady Bracknell from The Importance of Being Earnest would say, "We live, I regret to say, in an age of surfaces." and that statement has been greatly personified in the lives of some I've known.

disheartening it is, to see that the true spirit of innocence, honesty and self-contentment has been vulgarised by the laughable attempts of those who seek to portray an image of hard work and initiative. how can one hope to lead others in the future if one does not even observe and abide by the very fundamental principles of being true to self and to others?

it is painfully amazing to note the extent of hypocrisy, and the duration of which those actors can perform it. painful, because I fear and pray for their souls.

verily, having said all that, I take pride in the fact that I have not wavered from Kingdom principles all this while, and daresay have not been influenced by the negative energies.

because I know that Jesus is the Author and Finisher of my faith.
that the greater reward of the righteous is with the Lord.
and that knowledge is far above all mammon can offer.

and drawing closer to Him through this time, feeling His Holy Spirit rain upon me like fresh anointing from Heaven, is all that I can ever want or need.

I Will Run To You

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand it comforts me
From the ends of the earth to the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory may it draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the Spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
Till I see Your face
O let me live in the glory of Your grace

gid posted at 15:25