November 21, 2007

the current memory.



Yes, a wacky old photo only just sent to me by S.H., to celebrate the end of the examinations!

And so, Semester 1 of my first year at the University has come to a close.

There is much to be said, of the countless nuances and details that litter every single day of those four months -- of pain, gain, and a whole host of stories untold. In a breath, I would say I'm glad it's over. The entire Back-to-School experience didn't go down too well with me; having been excluded from the educational framework for a good part of three years, I experienced, and to quote Kenneth, a very "rusty mind".

It seems like I went through a full lifetime these past four months, short as it may appear, there was just so much to deal with on a daily basis that it got pretty overbearing at times. Not to mention the period of the dark ages, but yes, that is pretty much history.

As I sit typing at my Macbook this hour past twelve, I am arrested by the tangible reminder of the many nights and early mornings spent keying away at my trusty computer, with it being the only companion I could hold by. The agonising memory of being subjected to the sheer helplessness of tending to flooding assignments and reviewing the hundreds of powerpoint slides coupled with having to deal with the other crazy things is still something that has yet to dissipate, but I am certain it will, sure as the sun will rise tomorrow morning.

This place in Varsity means a great deal to me, and because it means everything to my family, the responsibility of it all weighs even heavier. I truly regret the times I almost threw in the towel because of what was happening on the other end of life, but I'm glad I stood my ground, albeit wavering, but with gritted teeth chose the narrow path that I had to believe would lead me to the light, somehow. I have been pondering over the song Blue Sky, and it reminds me so of the ardent dreams I've always had.

All in all, I am thankful to the grace of God in leading me through. Only He knows the fullness of frailty, and His strength is made perfect in my weaknesses. I was pondering on the grades I've achieved so far, and realised that when it comes to assignments, I have a lot to be thankful for: out of a total of eight assignment across five modules, I placed a total of 2 B-, 1 A-, 3 As and 2 A+. Not too bad at all for a first-timer eh?

That being said, there are still the results of the semestral examinations waiting to be unveiled. But for now, it is time to relax, recover and recharge.

First up tomorrow, lunch at Dempsey with three good people, shopping, video filming, dinner and perhaps a movie with N. More dinners to follow the next couple of days, plus a very possible tear-jerking scene at the airport. Ah yes, and birthdays.

And I'm not forgetting my focus on the CG. Much has to done this hols!

A real treat this December would be the trip Down Under, it is about time. I am sorry that I'll be missing out on a lot happening over here, but I need to do this for my brother. Hope to be back before Christmas and my 22nd, and am crossing my fingers that I will not have to wait until 2008 before flying back. That would be pretty nasty. Alas, at this moment in time, there is a ticket there, but not back.

Just a note for everyone of you:
When one door shuts in your face, another one will surely open.
And so, walk through it.

I guess it's time to turn in.

Goodnight folks. A brand new day awaits! Blue Skies! :-)

Blue Sky

In every heartbeat, lies a dream of greatness
And deep inside us, treasures unfold
Reaching for the treasures that shine above
I wanna live my life for all its worth

Every sunrise dawns a new beginning
And when the night comes, a fire burns within
Every day I live I wanna give
The very best of me
So let the dresm within come alive

Fly into the blue sky, soaring high above
Every cloud, every mountain, is a new horizon
Fly into the blue sky, reach for something more
And through it all, I will stand tall
I won't give up, I am stronger than before

I'll cross the line, leave my fear behind
Each step I take, I reach for greater heights
For in the end destiny is in my hands
This is my chance, I'll give the best I can

Fly into the blue sky, soaring high above
Every cloud, every mountain, is a new horizon
Fly into the blue sky, reach for something more
And through it all, I will stand tall
I won't give up, I am stronger than before
gid posted at 00:59